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Razor Blades and Altar Calls

Posted on Wednesday 12 March 2008 by Greg @ 9:14 am
Filed under: Rants

I’ll never forget Haley. It was at the end of the response time at the Dare 2 Share “Survive” Conference last Friday night in Atlanta. Lincoln Brewster was leading the crowd of thousands in a final worship song. Youth leaders and their teenagers were hugging and crying. Many had made life transforming decisions. I was standing in the center aisle in the crowd of teenagers. That’s when Haley tapped me on the shoulder.

When I turned to look to see who was trying to get my attention there was this high school girl with eyes wide open staring at me. She took my hand, turned it upward and dropped a razor blade into the center of my palm.

She had been cutting. She lifted her sleeve back to her shoulder to reveal cut after cut after cut etched deeply into the upper part of her arm, a part of her arm that she could hide underneath her clothes. I hugged her and looked over at her friend who was weeping out of sheer joy. I asked Haley if she had told her youth leader yet. She said that she hadn’t. Both friends turned around in the aisle and waved their youth leader forward. After telling him he hugged them both and began to weep along with both girls in the center of the aisle.

Lincoln Brewster was still singing. The crowd knew nothing about what was transpiring in the center aisle.

I kept the razor blade in my hand wondering to myself what makes teenagers cut. I wondered if it distracted them from some kind of pain deep in their souls. Or maybe it was some kind of self punishment for shame they felt from something in their past. Or maybe it was just another lie that Satan was whispering in their ears.

As I felt that cold blade in my hand I was reminded once again of the power of the gospel of Jesus Christ. I was reminded that Jesus took the pain so that we wouldn’t have to. I was reminded that his cuts freed us from the domination of the Evil One.

As I glanced over at Haley, her friend and her youth leader still weeping and hugging I was thrilled for Haley. To see her embrace the One who was cut and crucified for her sin and to free her from the pain of iniquity was a payday for me.

She left this comment on my blog just a few days ago,

“Dear Greg,

I really wanted to e-mail you, but this was the only way I found to get in touch with you. I don’t expect you to remember me by name & I really wouldn’t be surprised if you didn’t remember me at all. The little piece of metal I put in your hand might have had no significance to you, but at one point a piece of metal similar to that literally defined me & my life.

You don’t realize it, but you are connected to me now, whether you want to be or not. Because when i handed you that blade, I handed God my addiction. Thirteen months and i finally decided I was done with it. And now everytime I get the urge, and everytime I almost break, I’m going to remember putting that metal in your hand and that moment in my life when i looked at Marleigh [the girl standing behind us bawling] & said ‘I don’t think I need this anymore.’

D2S this year was a huge turning point in my life, and you were a very personal part of it even though that might seem hard to believe. My dream in life is to work with an organization like D2S or To Write Love On Her Arms. My passion has always been compassion & helping people. And with the new joy I’ve found in Jesus I think I can for sure help so many more people in much bigger ways. Thank you for listening. And most of all, thank you for taking the blade out of my hand.”

I do remember you Haley. I’ll never forget you. You represent millions of teenagers out there who need to embrace the forgiveness, freedom and healing that our Savior has to offer. May they follow your lead and drop their razor blade, not into my outstretched hand but the outstretched hand of the one who died to free them from sin and the pain that it brings.

Amen.

Signed, Greg Stier

177 Comments for 'Razor Blades and Altar Calls'

  1. On March 12, 2008 @ 9:31 am Tyler V said:
    • Wow, what an amazing real life example of the Spirit transforming lives. Brought tears to my eyes. Praying for you Haley!

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  2. On March 12, 2008 @ 10:13 am Janna - Laurel UMC Montana said:
    • Greg: Thank you for being a physical connection for youth to begin to understand God’s grace and mercy.
      A couple of my youth have been struggling with cutting, depression and suicide since Dare 2 Share - Denver in November. It’s been super hard for us to sort through the muck and get to the heart of things but I keep remembering the encouragement you gave me two years ago (you remember, jumbo screens, cameras and me crying in my University of Montana sweatshirt?) and I keep plugging along because I know God has big plans for me and HUGE plans for the youth I work with.
      All that you do can’t possibly fit into your job description but, for thousands of teens and youth leaders, you shine with God’s light and because of you they know they can come to God to begin healing. You are the city on the hill. Keep shining your light.
      Haley: We are praying for you in Montana! Know that you are not alone and because of your faith in God you will never be alone again!

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  3. On March 12, 2008 @ 11:02 am CortneyAnne said:
    • WOW!!

      Haley, you are a strong and very courageous person!
      I hope and pray that you keep strong in your relationship with God and that you may confind in your youth leader and friends. They’re there for you, not against. Way to stand up and go against the flow! :)

      <3Cortney

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  4. On March 12, 2008 @ 12:46 pm Heather said:
    • I’m just overwhelmed. In the grand scheme of the universe, our God can make such significance out of a sliver of metal. Even more so is the significance He makes out of each one of us. It’s absurd really, to think about- that the supreme being over all of existence with all the power, glory and riches would care so deeply about each of the billions of people He created. And yet so many do not know.

      I cannot wait to see how many people stand up in Heaven to say thank you to you, Greg. I can only imagine how beautiful a crown you will receive.

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  5. On March 12, 2008 @ 1:21 pm katie stinnett said:
    • hi, this past weekend was soooooo amazing. my little brother was saved and my good friend was rededicated! but that cell phone challenge took a major toll on me 4 about 2 days because i had called my own dad. he works with the union and is gone most of the time but when he gets back my mom usually lets me go over there and see him. ive been nagging him 4 years and when he got my voicemail and called me back……. we talked for about an hour and he accepted GOD as his Lord and Savior WOW aint that sumtin? i just wanted to thank everyone who had a part in D2S, it has changed my life and cant wait for it to come back around. thanx again…. k8e-bug

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  6. On March 12, 2008 @ 3:26 pm Marleigh McCrimmon said:
    • Hey greg!
      the friend here.
      Haley has always been the most compassionate person i’ve ever known.
      She loves to help people and she truly cares for them unlike anyone else i know. She loves life but for so long she would be trapped and behind her eyes you could see the pain. It went on too long, to the point where you couldn’t even notice in her eyes that she had recently cut because it was always there. She tried quitting before but life brought her down so hard, harder than ever before. Right before Christmas break it was getting bad… 110 cuts bad. She didn’t have a good enough reason to stop and my youth minister and i have pointed out God’s hurt because of it but someone as broken as she was needed so much more than a quick fix encouragement. She needed an experience that nobody could give her except Christ and he came upon her in a new way that night. SHe had hope for the first time in a while. true hope. She was happy for the first time, we were awake at like 6 the next morning and i saw a smile that was so relieved and fresh, one no one has seen in over a year. Easter is coming up and i think its so symbolic that she has given herself and scars to Christ on a day that he was also cut.
      She has been talking to her boyfriend about surrendering his life to Christ and he’s making a public decision at youth and she’s bringing a friend that she is still pursuing!
      THANKS! God is working.
      i thought i would jus give you a lil more about haley that she would never tell because of her modesty and selflessness~!
      _with love_

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  7. On March 12, 2008 @ 3:32 pm BigFatPonyDancer84 said:
    • I know how she feels. I’ve been through it myself. I thought I stopped but Satan kept on whispering lies in my ear. The three reasons why she most likely cuts is because of pain from the past, self-image, and Satan whispering lies to her. All of those are my reasons..I want to stop and I can’t. It’s so hard..I just wish I could have been there to experience it. I could have stopped when I went but I decided not to. I don’t know why but…I’m still doing it and it still hurts. People that know say it hurts them more than it hurts me. That’s not true. It hurts me more. Because of all the pain that’s causing me to do it on top of my cutting. I’m just tired of it all but I still can’t stop. It’s so hard…will you email me? I’d love to talk with you…

      ~*~Elenore~*~

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  8. On March 12, 2008 @ 6:29 pm a girl said:
    • hey elenore,
      I have been at the same place you are. cutting is an addiction that can be really hard to stop. if you ever need someone to talk to you or just want to yell at someone. i am here for you. i might not know you at all but i care about you. if your ever interested my e-mail is bm_stomper01@hotmail.com
      I hope you find the strength to one day stop.

      -from a girl who has felt the same way

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  9. On March 12, 2008 @ 6:34 pm Becky said:
    • Greg,
      When I read this tears ended up coming into my eyes.It gives me hope to know God can change me in ways I don’t think could be possible.Oh man God is so amazing!
      -Becky

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  10. On March 12, 2008 @ 6:48 pm r.baek4380 said:
    • wow. so many ppl in the world have the same issues with that. but i dont. gladly,:) readding all these comments made me cry a little by the problems from satan. this is so heartbreaking. but i also know that the power of dare2share will tell the teenagers spread the word of christ and the ppl who dont know jesus are going to weep and fall down on their knees. let just hope so. :)
      -RachelBaek<3

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  11. On March 12, 2008 @ 7:54 pm Lucy said:
    • Mm. Amen.

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  12. On March 12, 2008 @ 8:01 pm Katie said:
    • Elenore-
      I know I don’t know you, but I care so much about you. I want you to know that I am praying for you and have friends that are also praying for you. God says that “The prayer of a righteous man is powerful and effective.”(James 5:16) He also says “For where two or three come together in my name, there am I with them.”(Matthew 20:18) When you are feeling depressed, remember that I am praying for you, many of my friends are praying for you, and God loves you. Although it may not seem like it to you sometimes, God loves you and will always be there for you. “And surely I am with you always, to the very end of the age.”(Matthew 28:20) I would love to give you my e-mail to be able to talk to you, but I don’t want to post it on the internet, just for safety reasons. I will be praying for you.
      ~Katie

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  13. On March 12, 2008 @ 8:14 pm Rachael_H said:
    • Wow Haley that is so AMAZING!! I thank God for you being there! I was there too! I gives me such reassurance to know that someones life was impacted there!! Praise God for HIS MERCY!!

      Greg, thank you so much for all that you do. There are so many teenagers that look up to you, including myself!! Continue to be a light in the darkness of the world!! With much love and encouragement!

      Elenore, I am praying for you!! Right now! In fact here is my prayer:
      Dear God, I just lift Elenore to you Lord. Put you arms around her and give her comfort. Lord I rebuke satan and bind him to stop whispering to her. Lord I pray that you will give her the strength to end this. Lord she can’t do it alone. Only with you can she stop this pain she is causing her self. Lord help her and give her strength, Lord I also pray that you will send an angel, or a friend if you will, to help her get through this. Just like that song that says lean on me when your not strong, Lord help her to do that. In your sons precious and wonderful name.
      Amen!

      I will continue to pray for you Elenore!! God loves you and will never leave you!!

      Much Love!
      ~Rachael =D

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  14. On March 12, 2008 @ 8:40 pm haley blakely said:
    • Wow!
      First of all, just let me say how honored I am about all this! I doubted whether I even left an impression on Greg that night, but now it seems that those few minutes where the world seemed to stop & God stepped in will leave an impression on more then one person!

      It’s funny to me that through this whole thing people have been telling me that the only way I’d ever be able to quite cutting was if I did it for myself. But in the end I didnt do it for myself. I didnt have enough strength to do it for myself. I only found that kind of strength in the Lord.

      I pray that those of you out there that struggle with cutting, burning, any other form of self harm or depression will seek the Lord for healing. He offers hope & help that you cannot imagine.

      I’ve always said that I was going to make a difference & now maybe I am. I knew I had a story & I was just waiting for the time to tell it. But here it is. And no, what’s posted on this blog isnt the whole story at all. I have scars & cuts on both legs, all over my left arm & on both my left and my right side. I also have burn marks on my arm. The thing about our stories is that they are almost always partially told, partially heard, & partially understood. But God already knows. He sees. He helps.

      I thank those of you who are praying for me & who took the time to read this blog. You are in my prayers also.

      Oh, and Greg… It will never be possible for me to find the words or the way to thank you for posting this. This is a whole new chapter in my life & you are helping me to get my story out there. I’m actually telling my story to my youth group next wednesday night. And tonight durning youth group we were talking about heroes & I named you as one of mine. =]

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  15. On March 12, 2008 @ 9:52 pm Bear15 said:
    • Haley, God has now shown you the right path to take. Thank you for making a great desion and welcome sister.

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  16. On March 13, 2008 @ 11:04 am ColinP said:
    • Wow. Wow, wow, wow, wow, wow.

      God is good. Haley, I applaud you so, so, so much for your decision. And after thirteen months! That is just amazing. I’m glad and excited to call you a sister in Christ. I hope someday I will get to meet you.

      Thank you Jesus.

      -Colin P

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  17. On March 13, 2008 @ 2:52 pm BigFatPonyDancer84 said:
    • To Katie

      Thanks so much Katie!!! And I really want to talk to you so I’ll give you my email:) it’s malel_kabeck95@hotmail.com I hope you read this:)

      ~*~Elenore~*~

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  18. On March 13, 2008 @ 2:57 pm BigFatPonyDancer84 said:
    • To Haley,

      Haley it’s Ellen:) I really would love to talk to you about everything I mean like..not my life but I mean I want to know how it feels to stop and how you stopped and stuff..I really want to but I can’t..if you are interested and want to email me then my email is malel_kabeck95@hotmail.com. Thanks a bunch Haley!!!

      Also Haley. I’m sooo proud of you for giving up cutting!!! That’s so hard to do and you did It. I went 59 days without doing it but my highest is like 127 days. But stopping completely is so awesome! I’m praying for you:)

      ~*~Elenore~*~

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  19. On March 13, 2008 @ 3:30 pm Zach Fisher said:
    • Greg, when I was attending the Dare to Share in Columbus; you met with all of us youth leaders. I remember you saying a passage of scripture that indicated that most of Jesus’ disciples were under the age of twenty or something like that. If you could let me know that passage it would be great because I really want to explain that to the parents of my youth; it really would signify what I am trying to do with the youth. Thanks a lot! If you could email that to me it would be great!

      Zach Fisher
      zachfisher88@hotmail.com

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  20. On March 13, 2008 @ 5:51 pm Sarah said:
    • Hey Greg.

      I have to tell you, when I first heard you in Lincoln, I didn’t really like you that much.
      But then you really got into what you were saying, and I wouldn’t have wanted anyone else on the stage.

      This story almost made me cry.
      thank you much for taking that piece of metal,and thank you for putting the responsibilty on your self of being there for everyone of us, just like Jesus.<3
      Thank you for helping Hayley,and for every other live you’ve helped save.

      Love,
      Sarah

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  21. On March 13, 2008 @ 6:22 pm Greg said:
    • Hey Zach…It’s Matthew 17 and Exodus 30. Hey Sarah…thanks for your honesty. You almost made me laugh out loud in a public place.

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  22. On March 13, 2008 @ 7:16 pm BigFatPonyDancer84 said:
    • ^^ hey greg, will you email me??? I’d like to talk to you about something..thanks:)

      oh yeah haha you need my email..its malel_kabeck95@hotmail.com

      Thanks

      ~*~Elenore~*~

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  23. On March 13, 2008 @ 7:16 pm Shadowkyle said:
    • All I can say is way to go Haley I’m glad you got rid of that habit. It’s amazing what Christ can do in the lives of others right?

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  24. On March 14, 2008 @ 7:23 am Bubelaiken said:
    • HI greg. i been throught similar sitation. Zane and i are alike. here is how. I had done Drugs, Beers, smoking, huffing. i done all that. you name it. i had found Jesus christ. of all that i had done is horrible and shameful. but i has been throught a lots. I am trying to fit in with kids. I am different from other kids. Kids called me stupid and retard. it was hard for me and it was really desvasting for me because i used to think that god hate me but now i know that god love me and god create me just like Zane told me.

      Greg-I need to ask you something very personal. Please email me. My email is alamoleyanet@yahoo.com.

      if you can email me that would be great because i need to ask you very personal and i don’t wanna to ask you that in front of peoples seeing my comment.

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  25. On March 14, 2008 @ 9:53 am haley blakely said:
    • Hey Greg,

      Last night I couldn’t sleep & I was laying in bed around three this morning thinking about this blog and all that has come from it.

      I was particullarly thinking about the part where you were wondering why people acutally cut. I can’t speak for every person who’s ever done any self harm, but in general this is what happens:

      You hear about cutting on televesion, movies, books, the internet or from your friends. One way or another it gets in your mind. And one day you try it. It becomes a coping mechanism. Some people throw things, scream, cry, drink, punch stuff, write, sing or do drugs to cope. Others cut.

      After it becomes your way to cope it develops into an addiction. Cutting is similar to drugs and alcohol. It’s acutally addictive. Cutting releases hormones in your brain…the same endorphins that running or other physical exertion releases. These are good hormones. Endorphins make you happy. And these endorphins are also a big part of the actual addiction. It starts off as a way to cope when your really upset but after it’s an addiction you have to do it whenever you feel the urge, even if you aren’t upset about anything. This is when cutting completely takes over your heart, mind and body. If you get the urge you have to do if, no matter what you do it with. The most desperate I’ve probably ever been was one day in school when I wanted to so badly but didn’t have a blade or anything so i went to the bathroom and cut with a safety pin. Another bad time was after my mom and I got in a huge fight and i broke a picture frame and used the broken glass.

      As for the reason someone starts doing it in the first place…well I guess it all boils down to the lies Satan tells you, like you said. You do it because you feel hopeless, but everytime you do it it makes you feel even more hopeless. It makes you guilty. It makes you feel like you don’t belong because nobody else around you has cuts on their arms. And sometimes it makes you feel sick because seeing the blood all over you actually makes you feel good. I loved the blood. Probably more then the pain itself. It scared me at times. Because I would cut and cut and cut until there was enough blood.

      It’s not like every teenager cuts for the same reason, though that is what a doctor told me once. Nobody cuts for the same reason because nobody gets effected by things the same way. Some people do it because they feel like they don’t fit in or others because they feel abandoned. I’ve actually been diagnosed with the Savior Complex (I feel like it’s my responsibility to help or save everyone and if I don’t, can’t or won’t help the person then I feel like I’m worthless and a failure.) and I also have an abandonment issue from all the people who’ve walked out on me. Both of these have been getting better with time. But my point is that not every cutter has those same issues.

      You might have already known these things or maybe not. Either way this was just a rant of mine that I wanted to get out there. Hope you don’t mind. =]

      ~haley*

      My contact info for people who care:
      www.myspace.com/brokenglassandloveletters
      brokenglassandloveletters@yahoo.com
      fluffster56@aol.com
      & if you have facebook just look up Haley Blakely from Mississippi.

      peace.

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  26. On March 14, 2008 @ 12:08 pm Katie said:
    • Haley-
      Praise God for the work he has done in your life! It clearly demonstrates his power and his ability to speak through other people to get his point across. He obviously was using Greg and the rest of the crew at Dare2Share to speak to you. God is so amazing. It makes me think of the song, “How Great Is Our God.” That song is so true. Our God is absolutely, incredibley, beyond our comprehension amazing! Thank you Greg, Zane, Derwin, and the rest of the crew for allowing God to live in you and to speak and shine through you! Haley, I will continue to pray for you to be able to not cut anymore. Just remember, apart from God’s strength you will give in to Satan’s lies. Trust in him and draw your strength from him. I was at D2S in Atlanta. I so wish I could have met you. I will be praying for you!

      To Haley- Just some verses to help you remember to trust in God and rely on him, and to know that he will always be there.
      “The LORD is my rock, my fortress and my deliverer; my God is my rock, in whom I take refuge. He is my shield and the horn [a] of my salvation, my stronghold.” Psalm 18:2

      “Cast your cares on the LORD and he will sustain you; he will never let the righteous fall.” Psalm 55:22

      Praying for you!
      ~Katie

      ~Katie

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  27. On March 14, 2008 @ 12:52 pm BigFatPonyDancer84 said:
    • Yeah I knew some of the things you posted, Haley, but I didn’t know all of them. I have been desperate enough to use a safety pin at school but I never left class to do it. I just stayed in class and cut. Sometimes I’d break of the head of a leg razor and bring it to school with me so I could cut during my lunch hour. I’ve also done the picture frame thing to but I didn’t have to break it since it was those little tiny picture frames that are like half the size of an index card.

      Also here are a few bible verse that kinda helps me along the way when I want to cut or when things aren’t just the greatest..

      1 Corinthians 6:19- “Your body is a temple of the holy spirit, who is in you, whom you have received from God.

      Philippians 4:13-I can do all things through Christ who gives me strength.

      2 Thessalonians 3:3-The Lord is faithful, and he will strengthen and protect you from the evil one.

      1 Peter 1:3-4-In his great mercy he has given us, and inheritance that will never perish, spoil, or fade.

      Mathew 11:28-Come to me, all who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest.

      okay so that’s more than a few but I thought they would help you out a little and stuff:) They help me:)

      I’m praying for you!!!

      ~*~Elenore~*~

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  28. On March 14, 2008 @ 6:17 pm Michelle said:
    • Wow! What happened with Haley is an amazing thing. I wish I would have done something like that. I’ve been through the cutting thing. I haven’t done it for 46 days… but it’s getting extremely hard. I’ve been really stressed out about school and getting a job and just a bunch of stuff. On top of that all of my friends and random people at school have been coming to me to talk about their problems and stuff. Not that that’s a bad thing, I mean it’s awesome that I can help them. But then I get worried about them and I spend all my time thinking about how much they are hurting that I start to get depressed. Like Haley I have given up a few razor blades. When I told my youth leaders about cutting I started staying at their house a lot more, and they helped me through some of them away. But I couldn’t let go of all of them. I still have one razor blade and one piece of broken glass that I’ve used to cut. I’ve tried to get rid of them before, but ever time it feels like I’m getting ready to through part of myself away. It’s so sad that a piece of broken glass has become part of who I am. It’s what caused the scars on my arm and a couple scars on my legs. I wish I had the strength that Haley did to just throw it out. I know that God can give me the strength to do that. But it’s hard. Every time my Dad yells at me and threatens to hurt me I feel like I’ve done something wrong and somehow it’s all my fault and then I end up cutting. But that just makes things worse. He’s said the meanest things to me, and it’s so hard to forgive him, but I knwo that I need to forgive him. But when your own father says “why should I love you?” It’s kind of hard to forgive him.
      I don’t know where I’m going with all of this. I think I just needed to vent. Sorry for letting all that out on you. But thanx for reading this.

      Signed,
      Broken child

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  29. On March 14, 2008 @ 10:50 pm lost n broken said:
    • I have been struggling with depression for over a couple years I used to cut but I don’t any more but lately I have been really depressed about everything and been have really strong urges to get out my razor blade there are moments when I feel like if I cut I would feel better I just really don’t know what to do.i have told my youth pastor and a couple other people but i just cnat seem to get better or stop . Haley what you did was amazing I just cant seem to throw that razor away i pray for help but i still struggle I just wish that i had the courage to throw it away but i don’t its like its a piece of me that i dont want to give up ……

      signed,
      BrOkEn!

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  30. On March 15, 2008 @ 12:32 am Daniel Ellsworth said:
    • I think this is the best blog and comments I have ever seen on this site… or any other for that matter. I am amazed. I almost wish I could say I started to cry… but I cant because I have so many friends who cut. My heart goes out to them, and I try to help them any way I can, just being a Friend. I love those people, I just hate cutting. So this has been an amazing story, and I am glad that you (greg) was able to convey Gods love to this girl, and so many others. thankyou. and keep it up. like you said, this was pay off for you. I agree, it dosnt get much better then that. ThankGod and thankyou.

      –Dan

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  31. On March 15, 2008 @ 12:54 am Daniel Ellsworth said:
    • So I am kinda a poet, and use things in my life to wright poems about. I just wrote one about Haley (and anyone who has gone through what she has) called “Dear Haley, (Of razor blades and brighter days” You can check it out by clicking my name, or by going to www.bebo.com/heartsspeaktruth and clicking chapter 13. and to all you who are struggling with cutting… read chapter 5.

      BrOkEn: I will pray for you friend. e-mail me if you wish Ckatchup@gmail.com
      I have alot of friends who are going through what you are, and may be able to help (and my dad is a youth Pastor, and so If I get stuck, I can ask him)

      –Dan

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  32. On March 15, 2008 @ 9:16 am BigFatPonyDancer84 said:
    • Michelle,

      You are soo strong for going 46 days!! I was there once and yes I struggled so much, but you’re such a strong girl Michelle and don’t forget that. I’m so proud of you too:) I care about you so much and I don’t want you to cut. God doesn’t want you to cut either. I’m praying hard for you, and actually, here is my prayer.

      Heavenly father, God, I thank you so much for Michelle and I pray that she stays strong and she stays alive in you God. I just lift her up to you Lord and I ask that you put healing hands on her and I just ask that you send angels to her to protect her from the evil one. I pray that you prevent Satan from whispering lies in her ear God. I pray that you make her even more strong with what she is going through right now God and that she will fight those strong urges. Also I pray that you will soften her dad’s heart through her God and that she will be able to show you to him God. And I pray that she will be able to forgive her dad no matter how hard it is God. I ask this in your powerful name.

      Amen

      If you’re interested than here is my email it’s malel_kabeck95@hotmail.com
      I really want to talk to you because I care about you so much Michelle!!!

      ~*~Elenore~*~

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  33. On March 15, 2008 @ 1:05 pm Katie said:
    • Michelle-
      I will be praying for you as well. I really don’t know what else to say. If you want, you can go back up and read the comments I left earlier on this blog and maybe they will help you. I will keep you, Haley, and Elenore in my prayers. Continue to resist and rest in God’s strength. Alone you will fail, but with God all things are possible!
      Praying for you all!
      ~Katie

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  34. On March 15, 2008 @ 3:41 pm Kevin McDonald said:
    • Dear Greg,

      so answer me this. . . who do you think you are? Tom Cruise? well you’re not. in fact you don’t even spell your name right shouldn’t it be steer not “Stier”. or maybe you just have a serious problem with prenunciation.
      but either way, ever since Haley came back from Atlanta she’s been talking about you non stop. Greg stier this Greg stier that.Just today at lunch she was telling how if we start walking now we can make it to chicago to hear you preach the same message that she just heard last week. well if i have to hear one more thing about you i think i’m gonna hurl. i feel like i know you personally now. i mean you have been the topic of conversation for about a week now. but in all seriousness. Thanks. you did a great thing. i guess it’s worth hearin your name on an average of 6,000,000 times per day. b/c ever since that girl has returned from d2s she’s been so different you should see it it’s amazing.

      several months ago i told Haley “I look in your eyes and i see shattered beauty. It’s still there, but it’s been picked apart by every one and everything. I see someone who has been through so much and been hurt so much that they don’t want to feel anymore. But they can’t not feel because they’re probably the most affectionate person i’ve ever met.”
      Ever since she dropped that little piece of metal in your hand i can tell that the pieces have been put back together.

      And something else, not only did she help herself.. when she came back she came back from dare to share she did exactly that she shared. She made me think about my own life. and this past wednesday i turned my life over to God. She is so awesome but i’m sure you already figured that out.

      oh yeah and she likes to dance around the house and pretend she’s an airplane. she told me not to tell you because she didn’t want to be embarrassed in front of Greg Steer… I mean stier

      and i saw you try and kill that lamb. that was cruel man…

      Such a loozer

      Sincerely
      Kevin
      a.k.a KiDD

      (The boyfriend)

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  35. On March 15, 2008 @ 3:52 pm Kali Maynard said:
    • Wow, this story reminds me a lot of my own. It was two years ago and I was on a mission trip in Grand Junction, Colorado. It was a rough day and I went into the room and took my razor across my arm. When I came out I didn’t even realize how much I was bleeding, a friend noticed and we went to go get a paper towel to stop the bleeding. When we came back there were two guys that were from Jacksonville, Fl. I barely knew them but we had been hanging out that day and they both just hugged me and told me that they wish I wouldn’t do that anymore. That night I went up to one of my youth leader’s and showed her my arm. I cried, she cried and it was just a really strong memory of mine. I would love to say that is when I stopped cutting but it wasn’t and it took me a while after to stop. I tried several things, I went to talk to therapists, and I talked to Scotte, who at the time was director of student ministries at my church. He left but the last time I saw him was at D2S and I told him how long it’s been since I last cut and he was so excited for me. It took me up until I was at a youth gathering in Orlando and I was talking to Anthony who is also another youth leader at my church. I was crying and he asked what’s wrong, and we started talking. We talked for about half an hour and then we made a deal, if I could go 6 months without cutting, him and Stacy would take me out to dinner. I made it those 6 months for the first time since I started four years ago, it was the greatest feeling I’ve ever felt. Now, I’m working towards a year. Now looking back, they way I tried to stop cutting never worked, I mean for some people therapy gets them over whatever happened but for me it was until I finally asked God to help forgive myself, and others that led me to cutting. And ever since that moment I haven’t cut myself, bruised myself, or starved myself. And it was all through the works of God. When people say he works in mysterious ways, he does. Going to Orlando I had no goal to stop cutting, coming back I haven’t cut in just under 8 months.

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  36. On March 15, 2008 @ 4:41 pm BigFatPonyDancer84 said:
    • Wow..that’s an amazing story. Same with me. I had tried to stop cutting but it never worked. I went to Dare2Share and thought I was done for sure until Satan popped up again. It made me start cutting again and now here I am and I could have been on my 80 something day and I’m only on day 3…I’m so proud that you’ve made it this far. I’ve only mad it like 5 1/2 to 6 months…so good for you! If you’re interested here is my email. malel_kabeck95@hotmail.com

      ~*~Elenore~*~

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  37. On March 15, 2008 @ 4:44 pm BigFatPonyDancer84 said:
    • To Kevin.

      You’re post made me really mad at you when I read the first paragraph and I was gonna stop reading and say something back but then I kept reading and laughed so hard…That’s funny. It kind of scared me a bit that you would talk to Greg like that but everything kind of fell into place when I read the bottom and it said (the boyfriend). Lol..that’s some funny stuff..gives ya a g ood scare:P

      ~*~Elenore~*~

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  38. On March 15, 2008 @ 7:12 pm Daniel Ellsworth said:
    • To Kevin:

      Yea, alot of people come back talking about Greg Stier! He is just an amazing man, and being used by God in amazing ways. to my friends and I its like a household name. “yea greg said” or “yea on Gregs blog” so its not just her, believe me. Oh, and that line about “shattered beauty” is beautiful and amazing. Ill have to use it when I am talking to people who are hurting, it is perfect. Treat her good, you have a treasure. :)
      And welcome to the family of God my friend… Welcome to grace.

      Elenore: Congrats on 3 days!!!!!!!!!! I know it may not seam like alot, but it is 3 days that you have held out against the Devil. and the easy thing is to give in, so any amount of time holding out aginst the devils attacks is worth Congratulations. so Keep it UP!

      –Dan

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  39. On March 15, 2008 @ 8:27 pm BigFatPonyDancer84 said:
    • Yeah, it’s not to many days. I’m not to proud of it either. Compared to 59 days or 5-6 months it’s a lil tiny speck..well I think I’m going to go finish that song that I started yesterday. Email me if you want to see it, and I’m pretty sure you know my email by now:) look in the posts. I posted it about 20 times:)

      peace

      ~*~Elenore~*~

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  40. On March 15, 2008 @ 10:48 pm battlegirl01 said:
    • Man, I wish I could talk to Haley! I saw here myspace…I liked it. Some of her picture, and icons, well, most of them spoke of cutting, and many of here pictures spoke of Jesus and His love for us. I luv Haley’s Story, and I hope to someday here the rest of her story in heaven.

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  41. On March 16, 2008 @ 6:30 am BigFatPonyDancer84 said:
    • I just looked at Haley’s myspace. I looked at all of the pictures but the one that stood out to me the most was the one that said “this one’s for you” and it has a really deep cut under it. I do that sometimes..actually..I do that alot..except I say who it’s for…I don’t know. Her myspace pretty much did speak of cutting and of God. And Haley, you’re a very pretty girl! Don’t forget that!

      ~*~Elenore~*~

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  42. On March 16, 2008 @ 2:39 pm Daniel Ellsworth said:
    • Yea, I saw that picture too. Its very sad. and really shows how people can feel and some of what drives them to cut. Its sad, but true.

      –Dan

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  43. On March 16, 2008 @ 6:20 pm BigFatPonyDancer84 said:
    • Okay so I’m finished with my song now so, once again anyone interested can email me:)

      ~*~Elenore~*~

      my email is all over this rant

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  44. On March 17, 2008 @ 12:55 am Annie Taylor said:
    • Dear Greg,
      Haley’s story really touched me.
      One of my Bestfriends used to cut herself. she went to church, and to the best of my knowledge she was saved. She’d tell me that she loved God,and she felt him pulling on her heart, but she felt Satan pulling just as hard. i didnt know how to support her because i hadnt accepted Jesus myself yet. The cutting scared me but i was nieve and thought that it was “just a phase”.(Shocker)it wasnt. Eventually she turned to Drinking and perscription pills, and i went to a school councleor. we werent able to be friends for a while but we’re fine now and she’s getting help.
      Its really amazing how much Jesus can do in your life when you let him =]

      Annie.

      ps. Dare2Share[Seattle] was awesome!

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  45. On March 17, 2008 @ 4:24 pm Greg Stier said:
    • Wow everyone. I can’t believe all the heartfelt stories. I had no idea Haley’s story would resonate so deeply with so many. It really moved me. Now God wants to use you Haley to help others with this problem. Check these verses out:

      “Praise be to the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ, the Father of compassion and the God of all comfort, who comforts us in all our troubles, so that we can comfort those in any trouble with the comfort we ourselves have received from God.” 2 Corinthians 1:3-5

      You go girl…

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  46. On March 17, 2008 @ 5:08 pm William said:
    • Hey so this is a story that just brought me to tears while I was reading it but it alos reminded me that Jesus Christ is able to handle any problems and situations in our lives and having gone to the D2S Survive Tour in Atlanta I can truly say that the world needs more people like Greg and all the others at D2S. Thank You Greg and all the staff at D2S for continuing to be a HUGE inspiration in the lives of many teenagers by teaching them to start a positive revolution to save a generation that doesn’t know Christ

      -William M.

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  47. On March 17, 2008 @ 5:17 pm Heather said:
    • Hey its Heather again and Annie is one of my Best friends, not just because, she is my best friend because she helped me her and Sage where the ones to give me the huge push I needed to commiting my self to the Lord.
      before not too long ago I used to drink and do drugs I used to cut about 2 years ago. I went to church a few times but it didnt help, nobody saw me for who I really was. my Mom dies 4 years ago and thats when I lost all faith I hated God and every one around me so I started to cut then I started to smoke then I drank and then I smoked pot and other stuff. Well then my step mom`s friend Cindie brought me to church every one was nice, but that was when I was doing all of that stuff I pushed then away with in a few months and didnt go any more. in 2006, after I stoped going only like 3 months after I stoped cutting but I didnt stop evry thing else, but slowly but surely I was relizing that I was destroying my life. My boyfriend at the time took me to Salem Evangelical and to a church camp, and that made me start thinking but it still wasnt enough I still did things, I sinned more and more. Then school started and every thing and a few months in I met Sage and after Sage got taken out of most of my classes I had Annie and she really helped me she was happy and she had every thing I wanted, I wanted to be happy, but I didnt know how, and then December came and I remember going to Evangelical. I talked to Annie and Sge and my other friends about GOd I started reading parts of the bible I could find online because I didnt have a bible at the time. I went to Prayer clube and well on December 29th 2007 I was on my computer and I was reading pieces of the bible, I dont remember what of but then I got off layed in my bed and started crying and I started praying and praying and I stayed up all night I didnt fall asleep till late morning and when I woke up I felt new I felet like I had got a chance to start over.
      and a few weeks ago I went to youth groupe with Annie, and her youth Pastor came up to me and started asking me questions and I told him “I like just excepted God and Jesus as my Lord and savior” and he just huged me like he has known me like for ever, and he asked me if I would like to go to dare 2 share and I told him I didnt have enough money and he told me that if I got all the papers filled out and signed he would pay for me and I just almost started crying and it was like and awesome night. But just to tell you I never stoped thinking about stoping cutting till December 29th it was like I gave my razor to Jesus, though I still have all my scars, I dont care, because I have a story to tell I have a testimony, and going to dare to share has really helped me get the guts up to talk to my best friend Michaela, and many more people. Thank you so much
      I dont care if you e-mail me back I just wanted to let you know this cause I was too scared to tell you this in person to tell the truth.

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  48. On March 18, 2008 @ 6:01 am Michelle said:
    • So everyone’s stories on this page are so encouraging because most of you have stopped cutting, but I can’t do it. I’ve tried but it’s just to hard. It’s been a little over 50 days and I don’t think I can take it anymore. I know God can take it from me, but it’s not that easy. Letting go of it would be like letting go of part of my life. Cutting has been a part of my life for three years. I can’t just give up something that has been a part of me for that long. I wish I could, but it’s not that easy. I don’t know how to stop. I don’t know how to just hand my razor blade or broken glass to God or to anyone else. I think I really need to physically hand it over to someone else, because if I just throw it away I will get it back out of the trash. I’ve done that before. But if I gave it to someone there would be no way for me to get it back.. but I don’t think I have the strength to do that. I just need help, I don’t know what I’m doing anymore.

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  49. On March 18, 2008 @ 3:15 pm BigFatPonyDancer84 said:
    • Michelle, don’t give up please! I’ve been in your position before. You can’t give up Michelle. You don’t want to be back in the place you used to be. You need to let go. Not just you but everyone else that’s cutting. We all need to stop and so do you. I need to stop to. Please keep going.

      ~*~Elenore~*~

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  50. On March 18, 2008 @ 7:57 pm Rachael_H said:
    • Wow!! This is amazing! So many people responding to one girl’s amazing story. God Bless you Haley!

      Elenore: Try not to compare. Whether it be 3 days or 3 months it is still progress! Continue going to the word and and God for strength! Only He can help you get through this. I know this awesome site that I use to find verses. I don’t know if you use this also but check it out if you don’t! www.biblegateway.com

      I am praying for all of you who are recovering! remember this verse:
      I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me! - Philipians 4:13

      Much Love and prayer!
      ~Rachael

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  51. On March 19, 2008 @ 10:33 am Katie said:
    • Michelle-
      Please don’t give up. Take your pain and suffering to Jesus. “Cast all your anxiety on him because he cares for you.” 1Peter 5:7. He wants you and longs for you to choose him and come to him. He’s standing with open arms just waiting for you. I will be praying for you. Please don’t fall into Satan’s trap again. Turn to Jesus, he will be with you always. “…And surely I am with you always, to the very end of the age.” Matthew 28:20. You are in my prayers.
      ~Katie

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  52. On March 19, 2008 @ 12:55 pm battlegirl01 said:
    • Michelle!
      Girl, God CAN help you stop! You need to pray and trust me I WILL be praying for you as much as I can! You are precious in God’s eyes and He loves you with all his heart! I love you 2! we all do!

      battlegirl01

      PS: have u heard battlecry?

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  53. On March 19, 2008 @ 2:33 pm Kelsey said:
    • Haley, congratulations! That is a huge accomplishment, and now that you have handed it over to Jesus, your addiction is gone forever!!!! well done!

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  54. On March 19, 2008 @ 2:41 pm Michelle said:
    • yea i’ve heard of battlecry… i have an account on there to… i’ve been to ATF like 6 years…. my username is ignite09 on battlecry

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  55. On March 20, 2008 @ 8:11 am battlegirl01 said:
    • dear michelle,
      Mine is battlegirl01 if u want to look me up. and i’ll try ot look u p on there! God bless you!

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  56. On March 20, 2008 @ 8:42 am Kevin D. Smith said:
    • Hello all. I don’t know how many of you have seen this before but I highly recommend going to www.godtube.com and checking out the awesome video of the “Lifehouse Everything Skit”. The first time I saw this, which was just a few months ago, it almost took my breath away. I was so burdened by what was going on in Haley’s life, and then in one of those God-led kind of ways I came across this video. It was such a realistic representation of where Haley was in her life right then that it kind of scared me. And while it broke my heart, it also restored my hope at the same time.

      I mentioned the video to her, but never actually showed it to her. But that Friday night in Atlanta after that incredible service where she gave it all to God we got back to the hotel and I said, would you like to see that video I’ve been telling you about? When she saw it, her reply was simply “Wow!!!”. You see, she had literally just seen the ending of that video play out in her own life just moments before. And the most awesome thing about this ending, is that it is truly just the beginning.

      I hope you will all check it out. No matter what your personal struggle is, the message is applicable. It doesn’t matter how far gone you think you are. It doesn’t matter how much junk you have allowed to come between you and Jesus. It doesn’t matter how weak or hopeless you may feel. It doesn’t matter if you’ve forgotten about Him. He hasn’t forgotten about you. He is still there. He is still mighty to save. He is still ready, willing, and totally able to rescue the perishing. Turn and RUN back to Him. He’s waiting.

      And Greg, I don’t know what kind of copyrights or whatever might apply to this skit but it would be a truly awesome thing to incorporate into a future conference.

      God Bless.

      Bro. Kevin
      Haley’s youth pastor

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  57. On March 20, 2008 @ 8:10 pm Gina said:
    • Hey Greg,
      Whats up?? I thought that your message was amazing!! It really said alot to me and really opened my eyes to what I have to do. Thanks!!!!

      Gina

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  58. On March 21, 2008 @ 12:00 pm Jonathan Moore said:
    • Wow. We went to this conference (in Atlanta) and at youth group on Wednesday night, that next week, our youth group leader read it to us. I have never seen him cry and HE WAS CRYING. We were all speechless. It was a great, uplifting, powerful, redemptive, sweeet, story that really shows how God can work and use conferences like this. Wow. I am praying for her every night.

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  59. On March 21, 2008 @ 8:23 pm Hang Right Politics » The “new atheists” versus the power of Christ said:
    • […] you see, was…well, I’ll let my hero, Greg Stier, tell the story: I’ll never forget Haley. It was at the end of the response time at the Dare 2 Share […]

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  60. On March 22, 2008 @ 8:26 pm beautiful mess said:
    • i cut….im being abused….help….

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  61. On March 23, 2008 @ 6:27 am BigFatPonyDancer84 said:
    • Oh my gosh….I’m so sorry. Well my name is Ellen and if you want to you can talk to me okay? My email is malel_kabeck95@hotmail.com. I’d love to talk to you. I’m here to help you…So is Jesus…

      ~*~Elenore~*~

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  62. On March 23, 2008 @ 12:17 pm Michelle said:
    • I cut today in church.. something is really wrong with me.. i was sitting right next to my youth leaders even.

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  63. On March 23, 2008 @ 1:16 pm battlegirl01 said:
    • Michelle,
      what are the reason’s behind u cutting. Did they notice u? y? y would u in church?

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  64. On March 23, 2008 @ 3:30 pm BigFatPonyDancer84 said:
    • I really wish I could give up my cutting to God like Haley but it’s really hard. Before this weekend I haven’t told anyone this but I’ve been cutting in my sleep for a few months now. Not every day but, once in a while. I wake up after I cut and I don’t know what’s going on. I don’t know how to stop it. I tried getting rid of my stuff by giving it to my youth leader but she was talking to someone and I didn’t want to interrupt them..so I dunno..

      ~*~Elenore~*~

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  65. On March 23, 2008 @ 4:41 pm beautiful mess said:
    • …..im so alone…..

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  66. On March 23, 2008 @ 5:30 pm BigFatPonyDancer84 said:
    • I’m so sorry, just email me. I’m here to listen to your problems. I want to help you. Please email me.

      malel_kabeck95@hotmail.com

      ~*~Elenore~*~

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  67. On March 23, 2008 @ 5:37 pm beautiful mess said:
    • ….i told him to stop…

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  68. On March 23, 2008 @ 5:49 pm Michelle said:
    • you told who to stop? if you need to talk… just email me i’m a good listener
      i-heart-jesus@live.com

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  69. On March 23, 2008 @ 5:52 pm beautiful mess said:
    • …the person who raped me….

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  70. On March 23, 2008 @ 7:38 pm Steven S said:
    • Beautiful Mess,
      What’s going on in your life. I would love to talk to you. I can’t imagine what you’re going through. If you would like, we can talk. Can I have your email?

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  71. On March 23, 2008 @ 8:21 pm beautiful mess said:
    • beautifulmess16@yahoo.com

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  72. On March 23, 2008 @ 10:23 pm Greg said:
    • Hey Beautiful Mess, Be careful. I think you probably should be connecting with your youth leader not strangers on my blog (no offense Steven S). Do you have a youth leader? If so you need to connect with him. My assistant Stacey will be e-mailing you soon with some ideas to help. I’ll be praying.

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  73. On March 24, 2008 @ 5:21 am beautiful mess said:
    • oh…im so stupid…

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  74. On March 24, 2008 @ 7:03 am Greg said:
    • No you’re not stupid. I just want you to be careful. My assistant will be connecting with you soon with some ideas. We are praying for you!

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  75. On March 24, 2008 @ 3:09 pm beautiful mess said:
    • . ..

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  76. On March 24, 2008 @ 4:04 pm battlegirl01 said:
    • Dear beautiful mess,
      i have now idea of what you’re going through, but i’m here fo u. I’ll be praying for you. Greg’s right, you’re not stupid. We’ll all be pryaing for you. We al love you and want you to be safe.

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  77. On March 24, 2008 @ 4:23 pm beautiful mess said:
    • thank you

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  78. On March 24, 2008 @ 11:58 pm Daniel Ellsworth said:
    • Amen to you all.
      and beautiful mess. Im praying for you. and remember even when your life is a mess, you are still beautiful to God. (and others as well)

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  79. On March 26, 2008 @ 3:13 pm Michelle said:
    • Beautiful mess… you are most def. not stupid.. if anyone is stupid i’m pretty sure it would be me for cutting in church.. that was dumb… but you aren’t stupid… what happened to you wasn’t your fault… just hang in there.. .we are all praying for you.. and we all love you…

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  80. On March 27, 2008 @ 3:11 pm haley blakely said:
    • Hey Greg!

      Just kind of checking in with you…

      I gave my testimony to my youth group last night and it was a great experience! I’m not afraid of public speaking, actually I want to be a public speaker. But that specific group of people terrified me. My youth minister saw how scared I was (and I’m not scared of much) and asked if maybe I should wait and do it at a later point in time and I told him no, because I want to start speaking at places and reaching people now and I think the first step is talking to my youth. Now that I’ve dont that, I know that I can do anything.

      After I spoke last night a seventh grader in the youth came up to me and asked me to talk to her friend, who’s going through a lot of things I’ve been through. She asked me to give her friend my testimony. She called me talking to her friend a favor. I don’t. Anyway, I’ll be talking to the friend probably tomorrow…

      And I recieved an email a while ago (but just read it today) from a lady who wants me to come speak at a small youth conference she’s having for girls! Exciting, right?

      I think I’m also going to speak at the (psyciatric) hospital that I was admitted to last october for cutting. I really hope I get to do that soon.

      So many people have read this blog and added me on Myspace or Facebook or e-mailed me (like the lady who wants me to speak at her conference) and so I have you to thank for all of this. You definitely gave me the boost I needed to get my story out there, and you just don’t know how much I appreciate that.

      Yours Truely,
      Haley Blakely.

      (smile now!)

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  81. On March 27, 2008 @ 4:23 pm Greg said:
    • Hey Haley,

      Awesome! The first time I “preached” in public I was terrified. As a matter of fact I still get scared. I’m glad for that because it reminds me to pray and stay dependent on the Holy Spirit and not my speaking ability. My prayer for you is that God will continue to build you spiritually as he uses you to transform the lives of others that you are ministering to. Way to go Haley. I’m proud of you and glad that we could help build you a platform to reach more people on!

      greg

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  82. On March 27, 2008 @ 4:45 pm beautiful mess said:
    • thank u

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  83. On March 27, 2008 @ 5:57 pm BigFatPonyDancer84 said:
    • Oh my gosh Haley that’s so awesome! I’m so excited that God is using you right now. It’s so cool how just one small thing like give a blade to someone could turn out to be one huge thing like this. That is so cool!! I’m praying for you!

      ~*~Elenore~*~

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  84. On March 27, 2008 @ 6:26 pm Michelle said:
    • yea haley that is really cool… i wish i had the strength that you do to do all that you are doing… i dont’ think i will ever be able to give up my blade (or broken glass rather) it’s just to hard… it’s a part of my life and i have just accepted that.. it’s my way of living now

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  85. On March 27, 2008 @ 7:34 pm battlegirl01 said:
    • Way to Go Haley! I’ve preached b4 and i was shaking! but afterwords, i luved it! i think I got through to some ppl! I wasn’t perfectly organized but I got some “Amens” and pats on the back for doing the sermon…which was basically my testimony and talkin about my Compassion child. I luv it!

      Michelle, U need to give it up. Yes it’s gonna be hard and yes it was be a stuggle but you need to press on! the thing is,(i got this from my school nurse..she told it to us) if you cut to much, and let it bleed out while ur doing something else, it could get infected and you could get sick and die… yup, it’s that serious…but i’m not trying to tell you how to live your life…I really am praying for you. Keep the faith!

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  86. On March 28, 2008 @ 2:17 pm Rachel said:
    • Dear Greg,
      I’ve been at the Dare2Share confrince in seattle the past two years, and, like your encounter with Haley, I will never forget my encounter with you. You probably dont remember, and I dont care if you do. But I will always remember. It was sunday morning I think. The day after the confrince. I was with my friend, Heidi. We were comming back from the exersise room at the Mariot Hotel, so we took the elavator. But when we got in, there was someone else in that same elavator. It was you! I remember thinking, ‘omygosh!!! It’s Greg Steer!!’ But it came out in words too. Then i asked to hug you.(sorry if that was akward, I always do that when i meet someone cool) And that was it. You got off on floor 5 and we went to our room on 6, and I told everyone about it. It wasnt THAT big of a deal, but, it was a cool expirience, and some times I sit and think, ‘What if I never met him? Would I be thinking about D2S now? Would it mean as much?’ It probably would, because it was one of the most amazing things I had ever done all together, but I still will never forget that i got to meet someone as amazing as you. You changed me, Greg. You helped me understand so much more, and made me a better person around my friends. Thank you for that.

      You fan,
      Rachel A.=D

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  87. On March 28, 2008 @ 2:28 pm Rachel said:
    • Michelle, dont say that. never say never. you can do anything if you put your mind to it and trust God to get you through. You know he loves you and doesnt want you to hurt yourself. I dont think you want to either, do you? Your always in my prayers, along whith all the other people whith the same problem.
      Sincerley,
      Rachel A.=D

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  88. On March 28, 2008 @ 2:48 pm Rachel said:
    • okay, look. i dont know what you guys are all going through, whith cutting and stuff, i never have.(well, one time i was really mad, so i scrached my self, hard, but it hurt and i didnt like it.) Ive never had a really hard life, but i see how it affects alot of people, and i know its really hard. But im praying for all of you, because i love you, and god does too. And another thing, i saw something the other day that really made me think, and i want to share it with you because i think it will help. It was a magazine clipping that said “BRAVERY IS NOT DOING SOMETHING AND NOT BEING AFRAID. BRAVERY IS DOING SOMETHING DESPITE THE FACT THAT YOU ARE AFRAID.” I thought that was really cool. I hope it helps. I love you all.
      Rachel A=D

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  89. On March 30, 2008 @ 9:59 am . said:
    • …………………

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  90. On March 30, 2008 @ 11:38 am BigFatPonyDancer84 said:
    • Rachel, that is so true it’s not that your doing it with out being scared it’s that your doing it because you are scared and you know it’s what you need to do. I’m really glad that you put that out there Rachel, I’m sure people will get something out of that.

      ~*~Elenore~*~

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  91. On March 30, 2008 @ 7:16 pm beautiful mess said:
    • im gone….

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  92. On March 30, 2008 @ 7:16 pm beautiful mess said:
    • im done….

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  93. On March 31, 2008 @ 3:25 pm battlegirl01 said:
    • beautiful mess…don’t hurt ur self…plez…don’t do it…maybe i’m to late…i don’t know…i guess i never will…

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  94. On March 31, 2008 @ 7:55 pm beautiful mess said:
    • ………………..

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  95. On March 31, 2008 @ 9:45 pm battlegirl01 said:
    • plez..i’m praying for u…just say somthing…

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  96. On April 1, 2008 @ 7:02 pm beautiful mess said:
    • hola. estoy muy estupido

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  97. On April 2, 2008 @ 5:50 am BigFatPonyDancer84 said:
    • your not stupid. Don’t think that about yourself…(I’m pretty sure that’s what that says)

      ~*~Elenore~*~

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  98. On April 2, 2008 @ 11:15 pm Daniel Ellsworth said:
    • Hello Beautiful… No you are not stupid. but please talk to someone. just sit down and talk to someone, or write someone, and let us know whats going on so we can help. you have my e-mail talk to me, or to Elenore, or anyone, if you have a youth pastor talk to him, or his wife. we all want to help, please let us in.

      Praying for you… Dan

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  99. On April 5, 2008 @ 6:49 am rumplesnat said:
    • That is awesome. I am a mentor for a top 40 radio Christian call in talk show for teens and young adults and I am overwhelmed by the number of calls I get from cutters. I am blessed every time I hear stories like this so that I can share the hope with my kids that call me.

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  100. On April 5, 2008 @ 10:00 pm lost said:
    • okay i have been struggling with depression and cutting for liek 3 years now and i think im so far in that i cnat find a way out!!!!!!!!!!

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  101. On April 6, 2008 @ 7:03 am BigFatPonyDancer84 said:
    • I know how you feel. I’ve also been struggling with it but I’m on my way to finding a way out. If you need someone to talk to that can relate to you about your cutting than here is my email. malel_kabeck95@hotmail.com

      ~*~Elenore~*~

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  102. On April 7, 2008 @ 12:12 am Daniel Ellsworth said:
    • Hey Lost, Ill pray for you tonight. If you want to talk to me you can. CKatchup@gmail.com I have never cut, but Ive known alot who have, and quite a few that stopped. and Im good at listening. talk to someone. me, elenore, friend, pastor… someone. and we will help you.

      –Dan

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  103. On April 7, 2008 @ 9:45 am haley blakely said:
    • Hey Greg,

      This time I have a favor to ask you…

      Well, last Friday I had to go to the ER. I was so weak that I couldn’t pick up a glass of water and I was in so much pain that I couldn’t stand up without being helped. Yeah, pretty much sounds pathetic. Hah.

      I was at the hospital about five hours, but they thought about keeping me all night. They took a lot of blood to run a lot of tests, did a catheter, had an IV in me for about four hours, took three x-rays, decided I have a severe kidney infection, then put two bags of meds in me through the IV. But none of that is the point.

      See, my mom has hardly any money. I mean, we’re flat out broke. I feel guilty that I got sick because now she has to pay for that hospital bill that we can’t afford. Don’t worry, I’m not going to ask you to pay for the bill… I just need you to pray for us. Just please pray that she’ll find a way to pay for my short stay in the hospital and for the meds we had to buy. We haven’t gotten the bill yet, but however much it is, I know we can’t afford it.

      Thank you!
      Haley Blakely.

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  104. On April 8, 2008 @ 1:34 am Daniel Ellsworth said:
    • Haley… I too shall pray for you, your health, and this financial issue.

      –dan

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  105. On April 8, 2008 @ 5:36 am BigFatPonyDancer84 said:
    • Hey Haley, I’m praying for you, your family, and your health. That’s got to be tough=[. God WILL take care of you

      ~*~Elenore~*~

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  106. On April 9, 2008 @ 4:30 pm beautiful mess said:
    • i have no one

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  107. On April 9, 2008 @ 9:29 pm battlegirl01 said:
    • I can read spanish beautiul mess…ur not stupid…and you have Jesus!! don’t ever forget that He loves you!!

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  108. On April 9, 2008 @ 11:21 pm beautiful mess said:
    • he cant anymore

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  109. On April 11, 2008 @ 1:08 am Daniel Ellsworth said:
    • Jesus can and does love you no matter what… Look at the bible. Saul was killing Christians, he had them beaten, to death for his own ambitions. And God still loved him, and used him in great and amazing ways! He loves you no matter what you do, or have done. and All you have to do is ask for his forgiveness and its yours. Please dont think that you are ever un-loved, or unlovable, or unlovely. you know what, Jesus thinks you are drop dead gorgious, and He loves you with all his heart, so much that he died for you, He died so he could forgive you, and thats the only reason He had to die, was so He could forgive us. He took our sin a long time ago, paying the price. we just have to let Him help us, and forgive us.

      “Someone loves you, even when you dont think so…
      dontya know, you got me and Jesus
      by your side, through the fight
      you will never be alone, dontya know
      you got me and Jesus” –Stellar Kart.

      (watch a video of this song here…http://youtube.com/watch?v=rRv598d-QQI

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  110. On April 11, 2008 @ 8:35 am beautiful mess said:
    • he cant love me after my gift being taken away

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  111. On April 11, 2008 @ 11:08 am Daniel Ellsworth said:
    • God is a God of second chances. you can never do anything, or have anything happen to you, that will make God not love you, or not offer you the free gift of forgiveness. It cant happen at any time during your life. even Hitler could have accepted Christ and still been forgiven. so nothing you do can make God not love you!

      –Dan

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  112. On April 11, 2008 @ 3:25 pm beautiful mess said:
    • but thats hitler not anna

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  113. On April 11, 2008 @ 4:19 pm BigFatPonyDancer84 said: